Thursday, October 27, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
"I would work for ever and ever even without the impetus to do so."
Figure it out.
Note: I think work is good. What I think is dumb, is working at a job you hate/and/or suck at just because you think you must "put in your hours" somewhere. Um, not helping; go home. You know what else is irrelevant? I didn't know I wrote like I had an opinion until OAC law class when my teacher handed me back an assignment with a note (beside her phone number and a smiley face): "I can tell you are passionate about this topic, but be careful not to sound too one-sided." But when I am two-sided and balanced, teacher, I hear, "Sonya, make up your mind, I do not know what you want, I do not trust your wavering."
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Snippet.
I don't want to talk to him right now; you know what I mean? I'm not in that dating mood where I'm like, "Oh really? *giggle* You're so cool!" (Amber)
Saturday, October 22, 2005
You are here for this. You are the balance.
The Necessary Foil. [Rumi] XCIII
Privation and defect, wherever seen,
Are mirrors of the beauty of all that is.
The bone-setter, where should he try his skill
But on the broken limb? The tailor where?
Not, surely, on the well-cut finished coat.
Were no base copper in the crucible,
How could the alchemist his craft display?
Privation and defect, wherever seen,
Are mirrors of the beauty of all that is.
The bone-setter, where should he try his skill
But on the broken limb? The tailor where?
Not, surely, on the well-cut finished coat.
Were no base copper in the crucible,
How could the alchemist his craft display?
Napoleon Hill excerpts and paraphrases
"When one is truly ready for a thing, it puts in its appearance."
Yes. Every moment of my life I see this in action.
Determine to remain ready until you get that which you are seeking. Never change your mind. Stick to your resolve.
An intangible impulse of thought can be transmuted into its physical counterpart. KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, BE DETERMINED TO STAND BY THAT DESIRE UNTIL YOU REALIZE IT.
Done.
"One of the most common causes of failure is the habit of quitting when one is overtaken by temporary defeat. Every person is guilty of this mistake at one time or another."
HAHAAAA. Not applicable to me. (Though I'm sure that some would appreciate it if I faltered.)
"Maybe young Barnes did not know it at the time, but his bulldog determination, his persistence in standing back of a single DESIRE, was destined to mow down all opposition, and bring him the opportunity he was seeking. When the opportunity came, it appeared in a different form, and from a different direction than Barnes had expected. That is one of the tricks of opportunity. It has a sly habit of slipping in by the back door, and often it comes disguised in the form of misfortune, or temporary defeat. Perhaps this is why so many fail to recognize opportunity."
I don't like the sound of that back-door slippage.
Yes. Every moment of my life I see this in action.
Determine to remain ready until you get that which you are seeking. Never change your mind. Stick to your resolve.
An intangible impulse of thought can be transmuted into its physical counterpart. KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, BE DETERMINED TO STAND BY THAT DESIRE UNTIL YOU REALIZE IT.
Done.
"One of the most common causes of failure is the habit of quitting when one is overtaken by temporary defeat. Every person is guilty of this mistake at one time or another."
HAHAAAA. Not applicable to me. (Though I'm sure that some would appreciate it if I faltered.)
"Maybe young Barnes did not know it at the time, but his bulldog determination, his persistence in standing back of a single DESIRE, was destined to mow down all opposition, and bring him the opportunity he was seeking. When the opportunity came, it appeared in a different form, and from a different direction than Barnes had expected. That is one of the tricks of opportunity. It has a sly habit of slipping in by the back door, and often it comes disguised in the form of misfortune, or temporary defeat. Perhaps this is why so many fail to recognize opportunity."
I don't like the sound of that back-door slippage.
Friday, October 21, 2005
quote of last night that i forgot to post but that when i said it, like a dork i immediately thought, "i must put this on the blog thingy"
LP, reading through the Georgia Strait for new musical acts: "Do you like Nashville Pussy?"
Me, out of it: "I only buy local."
Me, out of it: "I only buy local."
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
" If everybody acquires a better education my better education will not mean much."
From http://jonjayray.tripod.com/overed.html
"Even outside the humanities it is possible that we might be overeducated. This is particularly so in those increasingly frequent cases where supply leads demand. This comes about because many people, quite realistically, see education as the key to advancement in life. They therefore want to get a better education for themselves or for their children. For this reason they support political moves to make education free and more widely available. There is a fallacy of composition involved here, however. If everybody acquires a better education my better education will not mean much. When competing to get the best jobs I will be no better off in comparison with others than I was before. What has happened is that the standard required to have a chance of getting a particular job has risen. In future, no-one will get such a job unless society has made a bigger and bigger investment in his education. Where once the completion of primary school was sufficient qualification for me to become a clerk in the Public Service, the Public Service is now even employing university graduates as clerks. Where does the spiral stop? How long will it be before even the garbage man has to have a university degree? "
Also like these sites from same author: http://jonjayray.tripod.com/rightism.html
http://edwatch.blogspot.com/
"Even outside the humanities it is possible that we might be overeducated. This is particularly so in those increasingly frequent cases where supply leads demand. This comes about because many people, quite realistically, see education as the key to advancement in life. They therefore want to get a better education for themselves or for their children. For this reason they support political moves to make education free and more widely available. There is a fallacy of composition involved here, however. If everybody acquires a better education my better education will not mean much. When competing to get the best jobs I will be no better off in comparison with others than I was before. What has happened is that the standard required to have a chance of getting a particular job has risen. In future, no-one will get such a job unless society has made a bigger and bigger investment in his education. Where once the completion of primary school was sufficient qualification for me to become a clerk in the Public Service, the Public Service is now even employing university graduates as clerks. Where does the spiral stop? How long will it be before even the garbage man has to have a university degree? "
Also like these sites from same author: http://jonjayray.tripod.com/rightism.html
http://edwatch.blogspot.com/
Monday, October 03, 2005
okay then.
"I have learned that you can’t make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved…"
Saturday, October 01, 2005
http://ye.entreworld.org/SF2002/mentmess.cfm
A Letter to Readers from
Mark Victor Hansen
Co-Founder,
Chicken Soup for the Soul Enterprises
I first realized I was an entrepreneur when I was about nine years old. I desperately wanted a bicycle, but my father said he wouldn't let me have one until I was 21. I negotiated him down to 16 - if I could earn the money.
It was right before Christmas, so I ordered cards from the American Greeting Card Company. The agreement was that I could sell the cards for $2 a box and keep $1 a box. I was pretty aggressive about selling, and all the neighbors seemed to love my smile. I just kept making a bigger and bigger circular "sweep" from my house and eventually out to other neighborhoods. That's how I became the number one door-to-door card salesman in the "nine-year-old division" of American Greeting Cards. Ultimately, I bought the bicycle with half the money and put the other half in savings.
When I started writing and speaking at age 26, I had no idea that I would eventually sell 80 million Chicken Soup for the Soul books. Thirty-three major publishers turned down our first book. Our agent fired us, and said this book of soppy stories would never sell. Then we went to a book expo and 134 more people turned us down. From my selling experiences as a youth, I knew that somebody would eventually say "yes" if I kept looking - no matter how much resistance or pain there was - and they did.
The most important advice I have for any young business person is to keep dreaming until you have the whole picture of what you want to accomplish. You have to know exactly what you want to achieve. Next, put the goal in writing, look at it every day, and begin to visualize yourself reaching that goal. Then, put together a team to get your dream. Find somebody who is a success in your field of interest, and ask them to teach you what they know. If you follow these steps, you will achieve even more than you dream.
Mark Victor Hansen
Co-Founder,
Chicken Soup for the Soul Enterprises
I first realized I was an entrepreneur when I was about nine years old. I desperately wanted a bicycle, but my father said he wouldn't let me have one until I was 21. I negotiated him down to 16 - if I could earn the money.
It was right before Christmas, so I ordered cards from the American Greeting Card Company. The agreement was that I could sell the cards for $2 a box and keep $1 a box. I was pretty aggressive about selling, and all the neighbors seemed to love my smile. I just kept making a bigger and bigger circular "sweep" from my house and eventually out to other neighborhoods. That's how I became the number one door-to-door card salesman in the "nine-year-old division" of American Greeting Cards. Ultimately, I bought the bicycle with half the money and put the other half in savings.
When I started writing and speaking at age 26, I had no idea that I would eventually sell 80 million Chicken Soup for the Soul books. Thirty-three major publishers turned down our first book. Our agent fired us, and said this book of soppy stories would never sell. Then we went to a book expo and 134 more people turned us down. From my selling experiences as a youth, I knew that somebody would eventually say "yes" if I kept looking - no matter how much resistance or pain there was - and they did.
The most important advice I have for any young business person is to keep dreaming until you have the whole picture of what you want to accomplish. You have to know exactly what you want to achieve. Next, put the goal in writing, look at it every day, and begin to visualize yourself reaching that goal. Then, put together a team to get your dream. Find somebody who is a success in your field of interest, and ask them to teach you what they know. If you follow these steps, you will achieve even more than you dream.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Read this article on "What Should I Do With My Life?"
http://www.fastcompany.com/online/66/mylife.html
A big huge.. snippet.. from the article:
Probably the most debilitating obstacle to taking on The Question is the fear that making a choice is a one-way ride, that starting down a path means closing a door forever.
"Keeping your doors open" is a trap. It's an excuse to stay uninvolved. I call the people who have the hardest time closing doors Phi Beta Slackers. They hop between esteemed grad schools, fat corporate gigs, and prestigious fellowships, looking as if they have their act together but still feeling like observers, feeling as if they haven't come close to living up to their potential.
Leela de Souza almost got lost in that trap. At age 15, Leela knew exactly what she wanted to be when she grew up: a dancer. She pursued that dream, supplementing her meager dancer's pay with work as a runway model. But she soon began to feel that she had left her intellect behind. So, in her early twenties, with several good years left on her legs, she took the SATs and applied to college. She paid for a $100,000 education at the University of Chicago with the money that she had earned from modeling and during the next seven years made a series of seemingly smart decisions: a year in Spain, Harvard Business School, McKinsey & Co., a White House Fellowship, high-tech PR. But she never got any closer to making a real choice.
Like most Phi Beta Slackers, she was cursed with tremendous ability and infinite choices. Figuring out what to do with her life was constantly on her mind. But then she figured something else out: Her need to look brilliant was what was keeping her from truly answering The Question. When she let go of that, she was able to shift gears from asking "What do I do next?" to making strides toward answering "To what can I devote my life?"
Asking "What Should I Do With My Life?" is the modern, secular version of the great timeless questions about our identity. Asking The Question aspires to end the conflict between who you are and what you do. Answering The Question is the way to protect yourself from being lathed into someone you're not. What is freedom for if not the chance to define for yourself who you are?
I have spent the better part of the past two years in the company of people who have dared to confront where they belong. They didn't always find an ultimate answer, but taking the question seriously helped get them closer. We are all writing the story of our own life. It's not a story of conquest. It's a story of discovery. Through trial and error, we learn what gifts we have to offer the world and are pushed to greater recognition about what we really need. The Big Bold Leap turns out to be only the first step.
One of the most common mistakes is not recognizing how these value systems will shape you. People think that they can insulate themselves, that they're different. They're not. The relevant question in looking at a job is not What will I do? but Who will I become? What belief system will you adopt, and what will take on heightened importance in your life? Because once you're rooted in a particular system -- whether it's medicine, New York City, Microsoft, or a startup -- it's often agonizingly difficult to unravel yourself from its values, practices, and rewards. Your money is good anywhere, but respect and status are only a local currency. They get heavily discounted when taken elsewhere. If you're successful at the wrong thing, the mix of praise and opportunity can lock you in forever.
Don Linn, the investment banker who took over the catfish farm in Mississippi, learned this lesson the hard way. After years as a star at PaineWebber and First Boston, he dropped out when he could no longer bring himself to push deals on his clients that he knew wouldn't work. His life change smacked of foolish originality: 5.5 million catfish on 1,500 water acres. His first day, he had to clip the wings of a flock of geese. Covered in goose shit and blood, he wondered what he had gotten himself into. But he figured it out and grew his business into a $16 million operation with five side businesses. More important, the work reset his moral compass. In farming, success doesn't come at another farmer's expense. You learn to cooperate, sharing processing plants, feed mills, and pesticide-flying services.
Like Don, you'll be a lot happier if you aren't fighting the value system around you. Find one that enforces a set of beliefs that you can really get behind. There's a powerful transformative effect when you surround yourself with like-minded people. Peer pressure is a great thing when it helps you accomplish your goals instead of distracting you from them.
"What Should I do with my Life?"
A big huge.. snippet.. from the article:
Probably the most debilitating obstacle to taking on The Question is the fear that making a choice is a one-way ride, that starting down a path means closing a door forever.
"Keeping your doors open" is a trap. It's an excuse to stay uninvolved. I call the people who have the hardest time closing doors Phi Beta Slackers. They hop between esteemed grad schools, fat corporate gigs, and prestigious fellowships, looking as if they have their act together but still feeling like observers, feeling as if they haven't come close to living up to their potential.
Leela de Souza almost got lost in that trap. At age 15, Leela knew exactly what she wanted to be when she grew up: a dancer. She pursued that dream, supplementing her meager dancer's pay with work as a runway model. But she soon began to feel that she had left her intellect behind. So, in her early twenties, with several good years left on her legs, she took the SATs and applied to college. She paid for a $100,000 education at the University of Chicago with the money that she had earned from modeling and during the next seven years made a series of seemingly smart decisions: a year in Spain, Harvard Business School, McKinsey & Co., a White House Fellowship, high-tech PR. But she never got any closer to making a real choice.
Like most Phi Beta Slackers, she was cursed with tremendous ability and infinite choices. Figuring out what to do with her life was constantly on her mind. But then she figured something else out: Her need to look brilliant was what was keeping her from truly answering The Question. When she let go of that, she was able to shift gears from asking "What do I do next?" to making strides toward answering "To what can I devote my life?"
Asking "What Should I Do With My Life?" is the modern, secular version of the great timeless questions about our identity. Asking The Question aspires to end the conflict between who you are and what you do. Answering The Question is the way to protect yourself from being lathed into someone you're not. What is freedom for if not the chance to define for yourself who you are?
I have spent the better part of the past two years in the company of people who have dared to confront where they belong. They didn't always find an ultimate answer, but taking the question seriously helped get them closer. We are all writing the story of our own life. It's not a story of conquest. It's a story of discovery. Through trial and error, we learn what gifts we have to offer the world and are pushed to greater recognition about what we really need. The Big Bold Leap turns out to be only the first step.
One of the most common mistakes is not recognizing how these value systems will shape you. People think that they can insulate themselves, that they're different. They're not. The relevant question in looking at a job is not What will I do? but Who will I become? What belief system will you adopt, and what will take on heightened importance in your life? Because once you're rooted in a particular system -- whether it's medicine, New York City, Microsoft, or a startup -- it's often agonizingly difficult to unravel yourself from its values, practices, and rewards. Your money is good anywhere, but respect and status are only a local currency. They get heavily discounted when taken elsewhere. If you're successful at the wrong thing, the mix of praise and opportunity can lock you in forever.
Don Linn, the investment banker who took over the catfish farm in Mississippi, learned this lesson the hard way. After years as a star at PaineWebber and First Boston, he dropped out when he could no longer bring himself to push deals on his clients that he knew wouldn't work. His life change smacked of foolish originality: 5.5 million catfish on 1,500 water acres. His first day, he had to clip the wings of a flock of geese. Covered in goose shit and blood, he wondered what he had gotten himself into. But he figured it out and grew his business into a $16 million operation with five side businesses. More important, the work reset his moral compass. In farming, success doesn't come at another farmer's expense. You learn to cooperate, sharing processing plants, feed mills, and pesticide-flying services.
Like Don, you'll be a lot happier if you aren't fighting the value system around you. Find one that enforces a set of beliefs that you can really get behind. There's a powerful transformative effect when you surround yourself with like-minded people. Peer pressure is a great thing when it helps you accomplish your goals instead of distracting you from them.
"What Should I do with my Life?"
How to do it.
On Richard Branson:
'When Richard Branson's granny was 99, she wrote him to say that the last 10 years had been her best. He should read the book, "A Brief History of Time" by Stephen Hawking. She had loved it. But most of all, her advice to Richard was "You've got one go in life, so make the most of it."'
'If he is greedy, then it is a craving for turning possibilities, even unlikely ones, into raging successes. "It all comes down to people," he remarks in an interview with David Sheff of Forbes. "Nothing else even comes close." He writes them all, all 5,000 Virgin employees, a chatty letter once a month from his paper notebook, and invites them to write or call him with their problems, ideas and dreams. They do...and new Virgin successes are born.'
http://www.beingdyslexic.co.uk/information/famous/richard-branson.php
'When Richard Branson's granny was 99, she wrote him to say that the last 10 years had been her best. He should read the book, "A Brief History of Time" by Stephen Hawking. She had loved it. But most of all, her advice to Richard was "You've got one go in life, so make the most of it."'
'If he is greedy, then it is a craving for turning possibilities, even unlikely ones, into raging successes. "It all comes down to people," he remarks in an interview with David Sheff of Forbes. "Nothing else even comes close." He writes them all, all 5,000 Virgin employees, a chatty letter once a month from his paper notebook, and invites them to write or call him with their problems, ideas and dreams. They do...and new Virgin successes are born.'
http://www.beingdyslexic.co.uk/information/famous/richard-branson.php
Ikiru
From the TIME Archive:
The great strength of the picture is the total seriousness and importance of what Kurosawa has to say: to live is to love; the rest is cancer
—TIME Magazine, Feb. 15, 1960 >>
The great strength of the picture is the total seriousness and importance of what Kurosawa has to say: to live is to love; the rest is cancer
—TIME Magazine, Feb. 15, 1960 >>
Monday, September 26, 2005
Today
I skipped work and instead danced to the Pet Shop Boys in my bra. It reminded me of how effing weird are the things I do. Still, it was so worth it. What was not worth it, was listening to Sarah McLachlan's downers and then calling all my friends to have heart-to-heart discussions about the limits of fuckedness, and about what levels of insanity they were prepared to tolerate before asking for help or taking matters into their own hands a la gun. No, I think that when life seems to go to shit, that is when we are not taking matters into our own hands. Stand up and get what you want. It's fun. And then we die.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
If only people felt this way about people
Ad:
Reply to: anon-99812220@craigslist.org
Date: 2005-09-25, 1:52AM PDT
Korg Polysix Keyboard Synth
Very cool old synth, Korg's answer to the Roland Juno.
I had bought this, intending to fix it up, but got too busy. Needs a new battery pack, I have the part, but can't be bothered to wire it up. If you are a synth nerd/hobbiest and you want a project, this is for you.
I just want this to go to someone who will love it instead of throwing it out.
Reply to: anon-99812220@craigslist.org
Date: 2005-09-25, 1:52AM PDT
Korg Polysix Keyboard Synth
Very cool old synth, Korg's answer to the Roland Juno.
I had bought this, intending to fix it up, but got too busy. Needs a new battery pack, I have the part, but can't be bothered to wire it up. If you are a synth nerd/hobbiest and you want a project, this is for you.
I just want this to go to someone who will love it instead of throwing it out.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Found this on craigslist.
dreams gone; given up yearning. accept your silence as disinterest.
in quiet mornings, i accept the tears & this aching loneliness.
given up dreams, but not how i feel. truth breathes within.
learning to embrace fear, loneliness, perhaps insight.
i'm sorry, i missed so much--every wind-blown word you said,
every static-filled thought off someone else' line.
everything happens for a reason...doesn't it?
in rilke's words, "have patience with everything that remains
unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves,
like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language.
Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to
you because you could not live them...you need to live the question.
Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself
experiencing the answer, some distant day...create for yourself
an utterly satisfying, joyful, and pure lifestyle.
Discipline yourself to attain it...accept that which comes
to you with deep trust, as long as it comes from your own will,
from your own inner need, accept it and do not hate anything."
[Letters to a Young Poet]
i know it's true...just wish i could hear from you.
trying to live fully in this moment knowing silence is your answer...
ouch
in quiet mornings, i accept the tears & this aching loneliness.
given up dreams, but not how i feel. truth breathes within.
learning to embrace fear, loneliness, perhaps insight.
i'm sorry, i missed so much--every wind-blown word you said,
every static-filled thought off someone else' line.
everything happens for a reason...doesn't it?
in rilke's words, "have patience with everything that remains
unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves,
like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language.
Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to
you because you could not live them...you need to live the question.
Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself
experiencing the answer, some distant day...create for yourself
an utterly satisfying, joyful, and pure lifestyle.
Discipline yourself to attain it...accept that which comes
to you with deep trust, as long as it comes from your own will,
from your own inner need, accept it and do not hate anything."
[Letters to a Young Poet]
i know it's true...just wish i could hear from you.
trying to live fully in this moment knowing silence is your answer...
ouch
Friday, September 09, 2005
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Dumbing Down Editor: Ivo Mosley. Publication Date: April 3 2000
From the Introduction:
Never before in human history has so much cleverness been used to such stupid ends. The cleverness is in the creation and manipulation of markets, media and power; the stupid ends are in the destruction of community, responsibility, morality, art, religion and the natural world.
As a result, a kind of numbness has taken over. In the face of an uncertain and alarming future, which holds little inspiration for present living, people fight off gloom and stupefaction by withdrawing into trivia, sensation-seeking, or addictions to money, drugs, or power.
This is Dumbing Down, a phenomenon observable in almost all walks of life; politics, culture, civil administration, the media, science, education, even the law. It is so widespread that a new term has been coined; dumbocracy.
Dumbocracy is the rule of cleverness without wisdom. It looks always for the short-term gain, forgetting that we could be around on this planet for a long time - provided dumbocracy does not get out of hand.
Some insist that dumbing-down does not exist; it is an illusion created by an elite to shore up its own waning power. But elites are a necessity in the human affairs of any great civilization. We should try to get the best elites we can, for when one elite is got rid of, another - often worse - takes its place; those who promise to rid us of one elite are bent on replacing it with themselves. As Franz Kafka wrote, 'Revolutions come and go, leaving nothing behind them but the slime of a new bureaucracy.'
Never before in human history has so much cleverness been used to such stupid ends. The cleverness is in the creation and manipulation of markets, media and power; the stupid ends are in the destruction of community, responsibility, morality, art, religion and the natural world.
As a result, a kind of numbness has taken over. In the face of an uncertain and alarming future, which holds little inspiration for present living, people fight off gloom and stupefaction by withdrawing into trivia, sensation-seeking, or addictions to money, drugs, or power.
This is Dumbing Down, a phenomenon observable in almost all walks of life; politics, culture, civil administration, the media, science, education, even the law. It is so widespread that a new term has been coined; dumbocracy.
Dumbocracy is the rule of cleverness without wisdom. It looks always for the short-term gain, forgetting that we could be around on this planet for a long time - provided dumbocracy does not get out of hand.
Some insist that dumbing-down does not exist; it is an illusion created by an elite to shore up its own waning power. But elites are a necessity in the human affairs of any great civilization. We should try to get the best elites we can, for when one elite is got rid of, another - often worse - takes its place; those who promise to rid us of one elite are bent on replacing it with themselves. As Franz Kafka wrote, 'Revolutions come and go, leaving nothing behind them but the slime of a new bureaucracy.'
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Oh yes, the LINUX Chronicles/
I bought a desktop computer yesterday. Athlon AMD 856 MHz, 1 GB RAM, 80 GB harddrive... oh yeah baby! I'm getting wet just thinking about it.
Sorry.
It's raining and I neglected to close the window.
SO. I'm multitasking. Working on my spreadsheets and photo stuffs on the laptop, and my Vector SOHO iso file happily downloading to harddrive on this bad baby.
"They were lesbians -- each and every one of them!"
(Hehe, I laugh everytime I hear that on the radio at work.)
I was talking to my mom tonight. About lesbian things! Now that the gay shtick ain't what it used to be, I think I'll go back to being unhappily straight. Just to mix it up.
I was talking to my mom about other things, too. 'Mother, tell me how to live my life so that you'll be happy.' 'Doctor, Sonya. If that's what makes you happy.'
Well, fuck then -- if it makes me happy! I never knew you supported me in my medical endeavours! I always thought you wanted me to live in abject poverty or contract HIV to prove to others that life is indeed worth living after all, even when all the cards are stacked against a person! Lose a limb?! even better. Be the example. I am so happy now. I could shoot myself over and over and be joyful.
So my calling is to do what lights myself on fire. Literally, and by literally, I mean the written word. I simply write what's on my mind, which is bound to be not much, which helps keep the writing clear and concise. No, I despise writing. Sounds signifying nothing. Well, when I do it anyway. Action is where it's at. Action is what is real. That is why I hide behind words. Transparent words. Ohhh nice. I'm naked, look!
I lose interest in a topic very fastly and with vigour, and I tend to mix metaphors, going against that Stumpy guy's suggestions. See? This one was too obtuse. Nothing is sacred.
That paragraph was a riot and a half to me, but to people who are not me, that paragraph is shit.
It's hard to must know. You know?
Oh, this was supposed to be about my sexcapades with Linux. Well, Linux baby is into experimenting, so he ran off with some Vector guy. I've gone off the deepend again. I'm getting good at a whole lot of nothing. Interesting. i can tell when I've been holding things in, because on this platform, I'm letting out all the junk, unfiltered, and it ain't pretty or even coherent. Good stuff. Virtual Therapy. it is what it is. being human.
Sorry.
It's raining and I neglected to close the window.
SO. I'm multitasking. Working on my spreadsheets and photo stuffs on the laptop, and my Vector SOHO iso file happily downloading to harddrive on this bad baby.
"They were lesbians -- each and every one of them!"
(Hehe, I laugh everytime I hear that on the radio at work.)
I was talking to my mom tonight. About lesbian things! Now that the gay shtick ain't what it used to be, I think I'll go back to being unhappily straight. Just to mix it up.
I was talking to my mom about other things, too. 'Mother, tell me how to live my life so that you'll be happy.' 'Doctor, Sonya. If that's what makes you happy.'
Well, fuck then -- if it makes me happy! I never knew you supported me in my medical endeavours! I always thought you wanted me to live in abject poverty or contract HIV to prove to others that life is indeed worth living after all, even when all the cards are stacked against a person! Lose a limb?! even better. Be the example. I am so happy now. I could shoot myself over and over and be joyful.
So my calling is to do what lights myself on fire. Literally, and by literally, I mean the written word. I simply write what's on my mind, which is bound to be not much, which helps keep the writing clear and concise. No, I despise writing. Sounds signifying nothing. Well, when I do it anyway. Action is where it's at. Action is what is real. That is why I hide behind words. Transparent words. Ohhh nice. I'm naked, look!
I lose interest in a topic very fastly and with vigour, and I tend to mix metaphors, going against that Stumpy guy's suggestions. See? This one was too obtuse. Nothing is sacred.
That paragraph was a riot and a half to me, but to people who are not me, that paragraph is shit.
It's hard to must know. You know?
Oh, this was supposed to be about my sexcapades with Linux. Well, Linux baby is into experimenting, so he ran off with some Vector guy. I've gone off the deepend again. I'm getting good at a whole lot of nothing. Interesting. i can tell when I've been holding things in, because on this platform, I'm letting out all the junk, unfiltered, and it ain't pretty or even coherent. Good stuff. Virtual Therapy. it is what it is. being human.
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